Recipe - a keeper

Completely Healthy!

1 cup of man
1 cup of woman
10 gallons of love
3 tablespoons of time
22 teaspoons of forever
A tid bit of misunderstanding
10 gallons of pain
A sprinkle all over of God
1 bit of hope

Take the man and the woman. Mix them together. Before you add the love, be careful because once you mix the man and woman together, you can't part them. Add in love. Stir until mixed well.

Take the time, and blend it with forever. Pour, the time and forever mixture into the man, woman and love mix.

In a separate bowl, add the misunderstanding to the pain. Set aside.

Take first mix, bake for 0202 degrees for 1 hour(year) 3 minutes(weeks) and 3 seconds(days).

If it doesnt' come out to your expectations, sprinkle all over with God and a bit of hope, and it will be all good again.



May my 5 gallons of love (because my other 5 are someone else) not be burnt but built to the right consistency!

Love
& as always, written by: Julie

You're Not Alone

I search for love
When the night came and it closed in
I was alone
but you found me where I was hiding
and now I'll never ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name
saying

You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every fear
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
and I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life

You cry yourself to sleep
cause the hurt is real
and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost
With heartache your closest friend
and everyone else long gone

You've had to face the music on your own
but there is a sweeter song that calls you home
saying

You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every tear
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest nights
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All your life

Faithful and true... Forever
For my love will carry you....

You're not alone
for I... I am here
let me wipe away every fear... Oh yeah
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through your darkest night
Your darkest night
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life

Beautiful Mansion!

On October 30th of 2007, I walked up to this most BEAUTIFUL big white house, with the perfect exterior. The yard was perfectly mowed. The hedges were perfectly trimmed. The trees were perfectly placed in perfect order. There was the most incredible white picket fence I've ever seen. Everything so maintained and so organized... on the outside.
Feeling like a princess, I walk up to this most unique, most magnificent peice of artwork on February 2nd, of 2008. My breath was taken away.
Time flew by as I was walking up those granite flight of steps to the mansions pearly door.
I knocked on the door. Not once. Not twice...
On February 25th of 2009 I opened the door. The inside was dark. There was no one home. Why was it so cold? Why is the outside so beautiful, but the inside no one can see?

The construction of this house was absolutely beautiful. It was pure and so much love was poured into it to make it perfect. But this house lives 2 lives, and you can only see what's on the outside. The electricity has been turned off.

It's so cold in there. I'm scared.

No one can find a lamp or light switch no matter how hard they try. Not the owner, not the buyer, and unfortunately not even the builder.

The house had been emptied. Not by the houses choice but by the ones who once cared for it.

So as I turn away and start to walk down those granite steps, I fall down them, as if I'm going in slow motion. I could have prevented it if I were more careful and payed closer attention to my actions. And as I reach the bottom, I'm bruitally bruised. But the bruising came from me. And now I need to heal so that maybe when I try to re enter that Mansion, the lights will be on and I can give to that house the care it needs.

Bucket List

So I've been thinking. There are things that are beyond my control, but all I can do is take it, grow from it, live it, and be it. My entire life I've given all of me. I've always focused on other people before myself, but now that I'm home... alone... every single night, I gather my thoughts and create this "bucket list" that I'm going to conquer during this lifetime journey.

Here's my list that I'm going to complete before I take my last breath!

* Write a book
* Learn to play the Guitar
* Make one single (christian music)
* Be part of my church choir
* Have my own product line in stores
* Perform at least 2 makeup applications at the Oscars
* Take a dance class
* Take a fitness class (for ladies only)
* Maybe instruct a fitness class (for ladies only)
* Do a triathlon
* Do every 5k in a year
* Be in one body sculpting competition
* Fly in a helicopter
* Take a road trip from state to state
* Fly over seas
* Buy a car
* Go scuba diving
* Go kayaking
* Play a round of Paintball
* Go skiing & just try snow boarding
* Go in a hot-air balloon
* Have my own house
* Do some modeling
* Understand Math
* Finish my degree (just because)
* Volunteer to teach children's church
* Take Dillon to the Symphony
* Be the best christian caregiver to my family
* Be the greatest mother to my kid(s)
* Be the most amazing wife to an amazing husband
* Go horseback riding on or near a beach with my husband
* Live a life of future and not of past


That's my list. One that I'm sure isn't completely filled out. But at this moment, I can focus on these things and become a better me through them.

I had a date with myself tonight at my church. Dinner and Theatre. It was the best play I have EVER seen in my life!!! Of course, every seat was filled being Friday night and all!

If you live in my area, I would 1000000000000% recommend you checking out "Christ Church". They are seriously the most incredible group of people I have ever met! I'm looking forward to having my 2nd year anniversary with them. And 3, & 4,5,6,7,8,9...!

My life is far from over

What the enemy stole, God will restore ten fold!

I'm going through this healing process. When your flesh has been torn by the actions from your forever love of which were from the enemy, there is pain but healing and growth.

It still hurts the same as it did the day of, but Lord I am ready to hurt no longer!

I look around and see so many men with wedding rings on. I'm so happy to see that there are some faithful husbands out there! Lord, I desire that. In Your time!

I'm ready to heal Lord! Bring forth what You have planned for me! Put in my life faithful ones! People who are OF You and BELIEVE in Your Word!

Amen!!!

Just where I belong

Tonight was a great night. I got to hang out and talk with some pretty cool people today. Although the food wasn't too shabby, it was free. And they did have Starbucks fraps!

Desyfer Down

Yeah, TJs hand was on my waist. :)

In action. I went to the front to watch a couple of songs.


Me and Kevin, lead singer of Disciple


RED. Great band, with such sweet families.


Me, showing off my zebra-print toes on their stage in between band change. lol.


Skillets lead singer, John


Hanging out until the rain passes. With Skillets John, Korey, Ben & Jen. Oh wait, where's Ben? lol


Me and Korey, chatting about life and kiddos.


Well, I had a great time, and I'm pretty tired. I've got to end this blog for now, I have to wake up early for church.

Blessings
Julie

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