Gifted

As you know... you got an invitation through e-mail to view my blog. Congratulations on being one of the closest friends of mine.

Please understand that this is a HUGE thing for me that I would invite you to view my private blog. As you know, I could have completely lost faith and trust in everything with what all has happened to me. I needed you more then then ever, and I need you more now then ever. This is the truth.

An incredibly amount of pain arrived in my life on Thurs. Feb. 26th of 2009, at precisely 3 o'clock pm. The pain is pretty much over, but the trust issue remains.

How can you trust anyone again after being abandoned by the person that was your entire world? How can you love anyone again after the love of your life has an affair? How is it possible to bring back that child-like girl again?

I know it will take some time. And the people that I am around... are the people I feel like I can trust.

I invited you for a reason:

Beth: You have been an incredible support system! Oh my word, are you the strongest woman I know! Thank you so much for being my friend, and my roomate.

Cinty: You are such a sweet, mellow, sincere, genuine young woman! I love you to death! You planned my wedding. Now you hold me in your arms as it melts away. I love you and you will always be my bestie.

Heidi: We have so much in common, it's almost scary. You have lifted me as I have you during trials. I thank you for your friendship. And I am blessed to know such a wonderful successful woman. I'll see you in Cali soon.

Ron Taylor: Thank you for all the support. Prayers each and every morning. Praying with me on the phone. Those many Starbucks afternoons. And having fun back stage during the concerts. It sure has been a blast!

Austin: I've come to know much more of you. You're caring, and I trust you. I'm sorry that I'm not at the point where you would like me to be, but waiting is a precious beauty. And I pray you find it in your heart that by me focusing on me... is not because you don't mean anything. You do. Just give me time. It's going to take awhile.

Kelly: You are such a dear and kind friend. Always there when I need you. Especially for texting. lol. Love you KellBell


I believe I've come along way. And I am ready for the next step in my life.
On Tuesday, July 28th of 2009 will be a definate closing time. I'm actually painfully looking forward to it. No one ever thought this might happen. It was a surprise to me. But I wish the best for him. And I definately know that God has bigger and better plans waiting for me.

I am gifted.