When you think things could not get any better...

...they get even better.

Just the same as when you think things could not get any worse, they do. Well, I've been there before. But throughout all the pain, trials... whatever you may go through... who cares what anyone says to you, about you, and as well makes up all kinds of false accusations. It bothered me once before, but now... I just see how lame and desperate some can be, to try and bring you down with their misery. What I have learned is that there is really only one opinion that matters. Not that I don't respect people and their opinions. I do. Very much. Sometimes, I just like to sit back and watch people. I've had to learn this to be careful, because with some... you never know what kind of twisty turny ways their minds are going. Let them dig their own hole.

It seems like the more I get hurt by people, they more God blesses me. I love this heart God has given me. I've always been one to give my all. Even through the terrible stuff the ex put me through, I couldn't take back how I feel about marriage. Yes, on his part it may have been a lie, but to me, it was real. I was in real love. I cherished it, and because I now see how much I had given to someone who didn't deserve it, I can't wait to give that much more to someone who does!

I pray everyday, every night, for true love. What I never paid attention to is that it had already existed in my life. It's like a child, we want and want and want, never satisfied with what we have. Yes, we have these desires. We have the wants to be physically touched and emotionally involved with, but we are already complete. My heart is so very happy.

I have this oh so giddy feeling in my tummy that God is preparing my heart for something.

On another note, my job is going incredibly well. I love it. It doesn't pertain to what I went to school for, but being able to be involved with the ministry part of it is so much worth while. It was a true hard decision debating between 2 jobs, but having prayed for over 24 hours and determining the difference between a Julie choice and a God choice was hard to do, but in the ends, I couldn't be more thankful for where God placed me! Plus, my hours are rediculously amazing!

Dillon has been accepted into a private school next year. And they focus on each child's personality. It truly is a blessing. They have dance classes, guitar, drums, theater, everything! I am super excited! Plus, I have been volunteering at the school Tues-Friday mornings, so I will get to see a lot of what he does. He has come to have the most amazing personality. His teacher told me 2 weeks ago in an e-mail that he is her favorite student. It makes me happy. And although I don't really like Blue Haze, which I'd like to call "Boo-Haze", his 2nd grade teacher has made up for the lack of professionalism his 1st grade teacher had and the principle has had in the previous years. By all honesty, I don't think anyone could ever compare to his 2nd grade teacher. She really is that amazing. But I am definately looking forward to what the "talented" school has to offer!

Doing things all on my own isn't as bad as what some say it is. It's kind of nice to know exactly where funds are going. I am saving right now to pay for a new car cash at the end of this summer. And according to my smart goober, he already has an opinion about the purchase of the new car. "Mom, you know I'm going to be driving in 6 years, so I think you should get the new Camaro so that when I start driving, you can give it to me!" ...was how the conversation began. lol. I'm still set on having a 4 door.

I feel like I have become a new person this year. Doing things I never thought I'd have the courage to do. Choir is amazing. I am so thankful to be a part of it. I had rehearsal for a solo that I am very excited about. Nervous at the same time. Then, 2 weeks ago I had my first triathlon. It was really fun but totally overrated. I'd rather run 50 miles. Or bike 300 miles. Or swim 5 miles. Each individually. I've been told time and time again to model, and I've had an opportunity to do a commercial, maybe at another time, but "still" photography is what I am enjoying, and have had a rather sharp photographer from Oregon capture some amazing images not only of me, but Dillon as well. I should have the pictures by tomorrow.

It is 10pm and I best get to bed.

Sorry, my updates haven't been more frequent. Life is busy. In such a very very good way. =)