He That Is Without Sin Among You, Let Him First Cast a Stone.

The sun will come out... tomorrow? More like 790 days!!!

Today was a pretty big day. I'd say... it's a step towards one of those "dreams come true."

I joined "Team Motives" today and begin my journey as a makeup artist in the fashion industry.

I know I am already busy as it is in my free time doing makeup and permanent makeup for brides, bridesmaids, prom, and photo-shoots... but this has just taken a step, more like a leap towards my ultimate goal.

Next Saturday is my first Runway show. It will be taken place in Dallas and put on by the famous Heidi, CEO of... "The Fashionistas".

I will be working in partnership with Tiffiny Luong, a celebrity makeup artist who has had the privilege to do J.Lo and Kim Kardashian's makeup along with several others.


Don't sell yourself short! It's not about getting lucky, or hitting a pot of gold. It's about getting your butt out there and meeting people. And people BELIEVING IN YOU! You can do SO much when that happens!

...but remember, not everyone is going to believe in you. Some will want to take stabs at you. But stay strong!... because those stabs heal and the tissue builds up creating a thicker skin!

Freedom From Problems

Life is a problem.
That's right, life is full of them. To desire a problem-free life is foolish. So, lets learn to expect them. It is what we do with them that counts.
Problems are a sign that you are alive. Problems exist becayse you have commitments. I'll say it again, a little differently. Only people with commitments have problems. No commitments; no problems. Big commitments; big problems.
Problems point to what is missing. You notice what is missing because you want something. It is not there, and that becomes a problem. For examply, money problems exist when you have a commitment to pay your bills and money to do that is missing. Relationship problems exist when you have a commutment to live happily with someone and harmony is missing. You have a hea;lth problem when you have a commitment to feel great and your energy is missing.
I trust you get the point. You will never be free from problems. Knowing this can produce a breakthough to freedom. You are free to live with them in a powerful way.
Most people live in frear of problems and become prisoners to their problems. They handle them in one or two ways: anger or confusion. "This is not fait," or "I don't get it, I did all the right things." These people are stuck at the problem level.
If you want to be free to create you life instead of reacting to events, there is a third apprach to problems, which gives you power. You can be free from the problem and therefore, free for the solution.
Instead of anger or confusion, you can approach a problem with wonder. The following wonder formula has produced many powerful breakthroughs for me and for my clients. It is my privilege to share it with you.

W: What's in this that's good? The truth is that at any given moment what is bad is always available. So, what is good? A law of life to remember here is whatever gets your atttention will always end up getting you. It is good to know that you have a commitment. The commitment is good. Focus on this, and go on to the "O."

O: Opportunity is all around me. We are always surrounded by countless opportunities to reach our goal. Many solutions are always available. Look for new doors to open and new opportunities to make new commitments.

N: Now is when I chose to act. You cannot solve today;s problem by comparing it to the ones you have had in the past. "Later" or "someday: will not take care of the problem. Ignoring it doesn't work either because what you "bury" you "bury alive". Now is the time to take action toward your commitmenmt. Make your mind up to live in the now because tomorrow is today multiplied.

D: Drop my demands. All suffering comes from unmet expectations. You didn't expect to have a problem, but you have one. So, stop demanding that it go away. Your freedom and happiness does not depend upon how life looks or what people do.

E: Everything always works out. This means you must have faith that your problem will be solved. Just keep moving in the direction of your commitment knowing that it will work out perfectly. It always has and always will. Isn't it true that many of the problems of the past were blessings in disguise?

R: Rejoice, no matter what. Remember to laugh. Joy produces clarity. There will always be ups and downs, "good days" and "bad days." Decide to let nothing take away the joy at the center of your being. Practice advanced gratitude by giving heartfelt thanks in advance for the solution of your problem.

There you have it; a winning formula to turn all problems into opportunities.
I have one more idea to share with you about the power of wonder. Every morning start your day saying with enthusiasm the following. "I wonder what fantastic thing is going to happen to me today." You get what you expect!

-Dr. David Laughray


...excuse me if there are misspelled words. I thought this chapter was good enough to type out.

Love you guys <3

3/22/11 11:10PM

Yay! Going to bed 3 hours earlier than I have been! lol Ninite you beautiful angels you! Love all of you sooooooo so much!!! Married or not. Take it up with God on your own terms.



...You created everything else. And it damaged, yours truly.

I was reading on the top 5 most deadliest diseases. All of which I don't know much about due to the fact that I have not nor known anybody that has been infected. I am now aware because I have done my research. Those diseases are scary. Words and influences, wether positive or negative affect us the same way. We don't know about it until one brings it to our attention. We can get infected with what one speaks or unaware about what is being prayed over us. I myself have been a target. With more than one hand underneath the knocking point. Those infections are scary. And by all honesty,... I'd rather have a deadly disease.

There ain't no "VS"

If a train were coming, and I were on the track... I'm the most likely to succeed it.

Do I enjoy the fact that I can overcome so much? Honestly? Absolutely not.

I'm don't why I have this magnet for people. I mean, it is great in some ways, but when people consciencely make the decision to become jealous... it ruins everything. About stupid stuff too. Painting nails, way I dress, me being happy. It was all so wrong.

And because people are so selfish in their own ways, and nothing... absolutely nothing is anyone elses fault... it ruins people. So the people God has want you to minister to... you allowed the devil to enjoy your company. That company was allowed into the hearts of those near the one who planted the seed.

Although the seed wasn't planted in or near me. I was effected by that tsunami.

Maybe I'm the only one that hurts from this. Maybe everyone is steel around me. Wish I weren't flesh.


Everyone has some sort of ministry. What is yours? And are you hurting people by your own actions in the process. Like, I'm not talking about, not recognizing when you do something. I'm talking about being completely aware of what decisions you're making.

If people's ministry is to push you away from God, it worked.

That now, it is always on my mind that I don't want to "compete" with any woman. And those who have chosen that there was a competition between us,... you're dead wrong.

I am me. I will always be great. I will always do my best. I will always strive for perfection. I am in competition with myself to be more like Jesus. No one else had the opportunity to fill my headspace. I'm sorry yours did. And I'm sorry you had to hurt to living creatures of God to feel like you had to be in control.



Just so you know... the above picture... ISN'T RIGHT.

My new tattoo

It's on the edge of my left hand, reminding me of the strength I've carried for so many years. And to remind me to keep on being strong.