There ain't no "VS"

If a train were coming, and I were on the track... I'm the most likely to succeed it.

Do I enjoy the fact that I can overcome so much? Honestly? Absolutely not.

I'm don't why I have this magnet for people. I mean, it is great in some ways, but when people consciencely make the decision to become jealous... it ruins everything. About stupid stuff too. Painting nails, way I dress, me being happy. It was all so wrong.

And because people are so selfish in their own ways, and nothing... absolutely nothing is anyone elses fault... it ruins people. So the people God has want you to minister to... you allowed the devil to enjoy your company. That company was allowed into the hearts of those near the one who planted the seed.

Although the seed wasn't planted in or near me. I was effected by that tsunami.

Maybe I'm the only one that hurts from this. Maybe everyone is steel around me. Wish I weren't flesh.


Everyone has some sort of ministry. What is yours? And are you hurting people by your own actions in the process. Like, I'm not talking about, not recognizing when you do something. I'm talking about being completely aware of what decisions you're making.

If people's ministry is to push you away from God, it worked.

That now, it is always on my mind that I don't want to "compete" with any woman. And those who have chosen that there was a competition between us,... you're dead wrong.

I am me. I will always be great. I will always do my best. I will always strive for perfection. I am in competition with myself to be more like Jesus. No one else had the opportunity to fill my headspace. I'm sorry yours did. And I'm sorry you had to hurt to living creatures of God to feel like you had to be in control.



Just so you know... the above picture... ISN'T RIGHT.