Judgement

You know how there are those times when you're not thinking about anything in particular and something just pops in your head?

You could be just waking up from bed, or you could be in the car... or you might even be sitting in church. Who knows where you are, there are absolutely no thoughts going on and something all of a sudden pops in your head and the picture becomes even more clear.

So the reason why I call this blog "Judgement" is based on judging one another. You know... I've always taken it in a negative way. Because that's the only way I have heard it. It's the only way I have seen it. It's the only way I have ALLOWED myself to see judgement.

So one day, thinking of absolutely NOTHING, God opens my eyes to what I have judged. I judged my soon to be ex husband. Ew, as much as I hate to see that. "Ex husband" just doesn't sound right. ANYWAYS, yes, I judged him.

Not necessarily in a negative way, but in a positive way. Sound weird?

Well, God showed me that you don't judge a book by it's cover. True. I've heard that before.

I judged Jimmy. He had (still does) amazing parents. Although I am not their daughter anymore, I will still love them as my only earthly parents. Okay, the point I am making is that his parents are incredible. I love them more then they know. But before I loved them, before I even met them, I judged based on their description. Jimmy's dad is a pastor, and a president of this world wide ministry. How could you not trust these peoples son with your life! I mean... they raised him right! There's no one better to marry then a man who you know wont hurt you. Who couldn't even hurt a fly.

So the journey began with a judgement.
A judgement of a pastors son. Raised up to a higher standard. Knowing that if I married this man, it would be biblical and last forever.

Man, was I in the pitts of denial. Why did I lift one up to be better then another? No one is better then anyone else on this planet. Although he was my "future husband" at the time, I should have never given that control. Only God can be my God. Jimmy was my idol. I apologize sincerely God!
No matter how amazing, and incredible the parents, and no matter how much time and love they put into a this amazing child... when this child becomes an Adult, he now faces his own decisions. His own beliefs. And chooses his own surroundings.

So judgement, as you can see, can be bad and can as well be intended for good. But in reality... be careful of however you judge. Like I said, you can't judge a book by its cover. Never make assumptions and relate them to another person. We are all different. We all have different world views. Some believe in forever, some don't.
For example, my parent's didn't... I do.

Either way, I am blessed for what all I've gone through. I wouldn't be as strong as I am now. I have never been stronger. I can only thank certain individuals for helping me along this process. Not only in the pain, but before that. I would never be as healthy as I am, eat the way I eat, accomplish my forever dream as an Esthetician, and most importantly... through it ALL, I am strong enough to love even without being loved.

God is here. And He makes all things possible.