lil'guy

When you feel your hearts guarded
And you see the breaks starting
When the clouds are far departed
You'll be right here with me

You'll be right here with me


Dear Dillon,
I know these words are a reality to you, to where you feel your hearts guarded, and you see the breaks starting, but I promise you the clouds will depart, and you will see the sun shine again and soon you'll be right here with me again.

Son, I promised you things I should never have. You've been through pain you should have never gone through, and I am to blame for putting you there. I promised you he would never leave. I'm sorry. I feel like I lied. I take full responsibility for putting you here and for your heart breaking. You don't deserve it.

I want you to know how amazing you are. I never met a boy like you. You are the healthiest, most athletic kid that I've ever seen. There is something very very special about you. You may not see it right now, but I do. And God always has. Even before you were born.

Just remember, I make mistakes too. I'm sorry for promising things that are out of my control. I can't control whether people come or go, but one thing I do know... is I will always be here. And I am waiting for you.

With my arms held wide open, I'm waiting for the moment you run into my arms.
We will never be apart again.
Through all of this, I have come to recognize and realize alot of things.
You are my everything. And I will never leave you.
You are all I need.

Waiting for your return.

In Strength,
Mommy

From this day forward, I want to make sure you live the best life. I don't want to bug you about the small stuff. Instead... I want to eat peanut butter out of the jar with you. I want you to be able to make some mistakes and sit back and watch how you correct them. I want to see you get excited about your constant progress in all your hard work and dedication.

It's just me and you now. And there is one thing I can promise. It's me... and you lil'guy. Get ready, because we're about to have more fun then we've ever had before.
I love you more then the stars.