Lemon

Sometimes you get a Lemon. Sometimes that Lemon sucks the life out of you. But that Lemon will soon belong to someone else.

May 29th. His birthday, I stopped by station 24, and dropped off a CD I made just for him with only one song on it. The video below was on that CD.

I gave everything to that man. And if he could take it all and throw it away, then I accept it because it is now in God's hands. I tried. I tried everything.

So in return, I unexpectedly recieve these messages from Jimmy.
I will type them in the exact form sent. Not one edit. Read the truth.


May 30, 2009 1:05PM
Jimmy Richard Hayward:
Why are you wanting to go to court? We were only married a year! After I paid two educations, paid for you to starts a business, and paid for countless other things you have sucked me dry... How can you possibly want more from me???

Julie Hayward:
1:17PM
I have nothing to say

Jimmy Hayward
1:17PM
Your silence to my question speaks volumes!

Julie Hayward
I loved you more that you ever knew. One day you'll see. I gave you all of me. As a Christian, I don't believe in divorce, but you will one day have your wish. I don't have to answer any questions I don't want to anymore. I've been submissive for too long.
I just wanted love, respect, and honor. Trust, commitment, and loyalty too.

1:46PM
Jimmy Hayward
Really? Who were you being submissive to? It sure wasn't me! Were you being submissive by doing all those chores around the house? Or by not giving me what was wrong in our relationship you would do exactly what you just did--tell me what YOU wanted. Not what WE wanted. And youre upset that I "brok the time of day when I needed you? Or perhaps by yelling at me.? You were submissive to the computer, blogs, and watching tv. And any time i told you e wedding vows' by leaving you should also remember the ones you broke on a regular basis: to love honor and cherish... yelling blaming and not being my 'helper' is a far cry from that. I dont know why im telling you all this it wont do any good but maybe just speaking straight with you helps. Idk
I guess i never showed you love respect and honor all those times id fill your car with gas for you? Get your vitamins for you? How many times you do that for me? I did show you all those things on a daily basis and you know it. Was i not commited when i put you through school? How easily you forget all that i did!

Julie Hayward
2:04PM
I'm not going to throw things in your face. It's my reponsibility to learn from mine, and yours from yours. I didn't leave you. It was our first year of marriage and the 1st year is the hardest. I'm not going to live in negative. I will always love you, even through all the pain.
I'm going to leave this conversation alone. I don't want to argue. God bless you Jimmy. Ill always love you. It's best if we don't communicate unless emotions are left out. I am focusing on me and Dillon right now.

Jimmy Hayward
Thats a first

Julie Hayward
btw, I never forgot all the wonderful things you did. I also won't forget this deep scar I see everyday.

Jimmy Hayward
If that were true you wouldnt have said 'all i wanted was to be loved, honored...etc."

Julie Hayward
If you have anymore to say, you can go through my lawyer.

Jimmy Hayward
2:17PM
I don't care about your lawyer--i have one of those too. all i care about is july 28th and not having to deal with you and all your drama anymore.










All I can say is... I should have paid closer attention. He is deliberately trying to abuse me with his words, but by God, I will not allow him to scar me anymore! He soon will not be a part of me, but let him be a part of someone else who can fill all his fantasies!

Jimmy's girlfriends: please, please don't write me. I've had enough damage. Don't worry about waiting for the divorce to be final. You can have him.

Drama. My dear. Isn't coming from this end. I have been nothing else but faithful. I'm not fighting for the marriage. I'm fighting for what's right.Trust me, I don't want to drag this out. If he would only do what is right, It would be over already...