I was created to love someone

I'm not going to accept anyone saying "I just don't love you anymore, or say that I didn't take care of myself to look good for him."
Has anyone ever seen me look like I never taken care of myself? On top of that, I don't need someone in my life that threatens their life and blames it on me. If you don't love yourself or the one who loves you more than the world, then I don't deserve it and the constant blaming everything on me. I've admited my faults. I've given it to the Lord.

When you left, you left a good thing. After you left, you saw a really bad side of me. Who wouldn't have gone crazy for ALL the things lost unexpectedly? I've given you to the Lord. It's out of my hands. And I will not "wash my hands of you" as you said to me. You made up every excuse to make yourself think it was okay. How could any human being but anyone through this amount of pain?

I'm 100% loyal. I will love at no end. Don't expect me to be perfect like some. Expect me to be as imperfect as imperfect can be.

When you read below, do not take it that I am looking for the next best thing, because I am FAR from it, and honestly I am still in love with my (I don't know what you would call him, but I guess for now, he is still my...) husband. Time will pass and I am seeing the true side of every side. So for now... while it's fresh... this is what I want out of someone, even if it's 40 when I remarry.

If this is the real you, then I accept what has happened. Of everything I've given to you, my love, identity, failures, and entire future... for a man that is supposed to provide for his family and all of a sudden abandon them, I can honestly say it's 100% wrong... I deserve better... and I forgive you. I've been deeply cut, and there WILL always be a deep scar with your name on it, but it's slowely not hurting as bad anymore.

*Someone who loves himself, not arrogantly, but Godly
*Someone who puts God first in ever aspect of life
*Someone who believes in forever
*Someone who doesn't marry out of lust, but LOVE!
*Someone who has never been married before
*Someone who is not a PK
*Someone who doesn't have children
*But someone who loves children with his whole heart!
*And someone who maybe wants to have a baby
*Someone that is truthful, with himself and me
*Someone that is hilarious!
*Someone that enjoys cooking
*Someone who a leader in the church and does not deceive the people
*Someone who is smart :)
*Someone who loves to constantly learn
*Someone who likes to read the dictionary with me, 1 page a night
*Someone who likes to read period
*Someone who likes to eat, because in return I like to cook
*Someone who has a BIG appetite! Not that I do, but it's kind of hot when a guy eats alot.
*Someone who is not picky in eating any kind of foods
*Someone who LOVES nutrition
*Someone who loves seafood
*Someone who doesn't eat pork
*Someone who enjoys working out daily
*Someone who likes to try new things
*Someone who would be interested in my health lifestyle
*Someone who likes to give massages ;)
*Someone that says "I love you", really means it!
*Someone who likes to take road trips
*Someone who loves to swim
*Someone who is musically inclined
*Someone who would run 5k's with me all the time
*Someone who would try and pick out clothes for me (it's cute)
*Someone who appreciates his woman getting prettied up for an hour every day
*Someone who cares for others
*Someone who really likes to spend quality time with that special someone
*Someone who is touchy/feely
*Someone who would like to be my guinea pig for facials and stuff :)
*Someone who likes to cuddle
*Someone who really cares for his woman all the way
*Someone who allows me to cut his hair and clip his nails
*Someone who doesn't drink alcohol
*Someone who doesn't drink cofee or cokes either
*Someone who's mother and father are still married (I need a mom & dad I can hug daily if possibly)
*Someone who despises arguing
*Someone who wants just ONE woman
*Someone who is loyal and faithful
*Someone who would enjoy going to the Symphony


That's all. Haha. But really, that really is what I desire.