Repair Kit

I've just got to keep reminding myself of the things I've learned from this experience...

When a divorce occures from one side only, that side is blinded by their problems themselves. It's okay. Everyone is battling a process within their lives.
One thing I wish to stress for myself is that it's not a one way street. There are problems from both spouses. He is not to be ignored. She is not to be ignored. If one is, then there is selfishness desires for that one person. Both are found guilty in unpleasant beahaviors, but if one side demands control then it is unfair for the marriage period. And it fails.

One thing I have learned. I put my husband before God. Bad, bad choice. Over a years worth of time I let him have control. I let him control me. I let him control our marriage. Look where we are now.

If I just had a sincere apology from him saying, "I'm sorry, I had some things going on in my own personal spiritual life, and I made these decisions without God in mind, will you find it in your heart to forgive me?"

But lets face the fact. It's not going to happen. In life that is. But in my head it has, and I whole heartedly forgiven.

So as I gather myself together, and try to start off new, my bandages will slowely wear off.

Like I've told my friend... God is our healer. He is our bandages when we need healing, and He is our neosporin when we need to forgive. I know it sounds silly, but it's just one of those creative examples God gave me one day.

I'm trusting in the Lord more and more through this walk that I'm blessed to travel.

One day... just one day.

"All these thoughts came to me while listening to Lifehouse-Whatever it takes, in the car ride home from Barnes & Noble today"... plus I bought a book...