Puddle of Tears

I don't have a puddle of tears because of any sort of connection. The connection clearly has been lost and I have been so happy because I have realized so much!

Why do I let this get to me? I'm not sure. But when you hear so many lies come from someone who you used to love, someone that used to not be the way they are now, it does hurt. I think mainly because I do have a good name for myself. I work hard every day to give 100% love to each person I see or talk to. Explains why I've had such long friendships. I mean, ask my bff Rachelle of 21 years. Ask my bff Stacey of 14 years. Ask my bff Kelly of almost 4 years. The list goes on. I am still friends with my ex bf's. I mean, we don't talk every day. But they are doing well and when we do talk, it's like... "remember this" and we laugh about it. But as for my ex, he is the only person in the world that it's impossible to have a decent normal conversation with without it taken out of context.
Beth, my roomate who knows me quite well was there when I recieved "Trish's" 1st e-mail on myspace. I would honest to God be lying if I said I DID write her. I never once wrote her.
I don't understand why he is so angry. And why he blames me for HIM walking out. I never knew it was going to happen. And the "clues" that he insists he gave are just an excuse. The guilt of what he did to me and my son must be the reason for his anger.

Well, I would love to finish this, but there is a HUGE storm coming in that I can hear. Just heard the TV in the living room go out, so before my computer goes kur-plunk, I'm going to submit this now and possibly... POSSIBLY finish this another time...

...Either way, let's just say for instance that all this mumble-jumble stuff he said were "true". Which not one thing is, but we're not married anymore! What is the sense of even saying anything about anything? There are NO TIES. I'm not controlled by him anymore. We are no longer connected in any way, fashion, form, etc. Seriously, what was the sole reason to bring to the table, even the littlest thing concerning any part of our relationship up? He did force the divorce. Why talk about it unless your under pressure of Heavy Whipped Guilt. The guilt is not mine, Jimmy. I didn't force you to unexpectingly, secretly walk out with everything while I was at school. The only sign I got, were from the neighbors, when she called me and said "Hey, when we told you we were moving, I thought you would have told us too."

For goodness sake! Just say thank you for the "bread pudding" location.