Construction Ahead

Please Yield.

Relief. There have been answered prayers. I feel them within myself.

It was an extremely painful week, I'm not going to lie, but I needed it. I needed every bit of it.

Yesterday was a start to my new journey. It seems as if I can breathe better. It seems as if I'm healthier then I ever have been.

When this all began I cried and cried. I now see that even pass the pain, I was selfishly crying for me, when I should have been crying for the ones I loved because of the pain I've put them through.

I realized that it had become a natural habit for me that even though I had apologized for some of the things I had said or done, I would point fingers right back and say "We'll, you did this so you should apologize for this".
God has shown me that I need to be responsible for only my actions. To not point fingers on others mistakes. That would be calling me a hypocrite. To focus on me unless it is to uplift. It is my responsibility to be Christ-like to those around me. To uplift, to be pleasant, to be honest, to be reliable, to be responsible, to honor and protect my family.
I asked for forgiveness.
I love my God. My Father.

So although this past week was the beginning of this construction, I've got some more gravel to haul. I've taken things for granted and I'm seeing them everyday. I still need to go through this rough journey alone for now. To see what all I've taken for granted. It's hard, but I asked God to bring it! I need it. I'll do it for my family.

With every bit of love I have,
Julie Hayward