You've been served

Even through the pain, or pain I've encountered, I still find a way to trust.
"Can you be at the house tomorrow right after school? I might need to bring some more stuff by?"

I'm still taking this with a smile on my face, a smile provided by God. Because I know, I know, I KNOW this is just something I have to face in order to grow and get ready for something bigger, something better!
Do I forgive you? Of course! And because of God, never will I have the thought of this again. It's been forgiven. It's in the past. It's a decision. Wether right, or wrong. It's not my place anymore.


This is the actions when things are thought out. And not spiritually thought out.
But it's okay. Because I can see. I see hope. I see love. I am whole. I have not had the opportunity to be part of this decision making. But again, it's okay. I have dealt with it and couldn't have done it if God weren't by my side. He knows my heart.

You can get put in situations that you desire. You fall... hard.
Madly, deeply, crazy in love.
Your prayers have been answered.
Smiles, laughs, giggles, tickles, hugs, kisses, strength.
Things that have been forgotten by your forever.
love.

What happens when they fall apart.
When they quickly dissapear.
When your desires and dreams of one life love have been shattered.
When thoughts not of God came in place.
This is no game. There are 2 hearts involved.
Devil, you are not welcome here.

But,
You trust. Have faith. Continue to love. Learn from your mistakes. Let go.


I have given this all to ther Lord.
I will not let the devil defeat me.
I will stand strong. Love for God alone. Continue eating healthy. Look beautiful every single day. Workout consistantly. Submit all of me, words and actions to God. If it's not from God, shall I shut my mouth, shall I be still and pray for the right answers. Give 100% at school. Give 100% at work. Focus on each second, nothing before, nothing after. This is a lesson learned and God is my witness, I have more to give than ever before.

I have not given up. I never will.
My love remains, just 10 x's more of it.


Dear Jimmy,
I'm praying for you. Each and every day. I understand you weren't completely over your last divorce. It takes 1 year to every 4 years to get over her. That's almost 2 years. We married not even a year after your divorce.
My heart is involved, and I said "I do". Vows before God. I'm not asking you for anything at all, this is what you desire, and all I want is what makes you happy. I desire to see you happy. My love for you will continue until I'm laid to rest. May God bring peace within you. May He love you and hold you tight. May He repair you inside and out. I pray your complete healing from the last divorce, and I pray you find truth with this one.
Your tears show you still love me. And guess what? I still love you too.
Just know, that anytime you need me. If you need a hand to hold. If you're going through something that you need someones touch. My hands are here, but I cannot reach out to you. Stretch your arms out, and I'll be there.
Promise.

My heart is fireproof,
Julie Hayward