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Celebrate Freedom '09
Monday, June 29, 2009
Celebrate Freedom has NEVER been so hot! 105* scorching sun, but I hung out with Jeremy camp, Mark Schultz, The Afters and KLTY crew instead. Robin, where were you? I saw Ron, but couldn't find you!
Lifelong, Significant or Friend.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
"FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER"
..:: Golden rules for finding your life partner ::..
by Dov Heller, M.A.
A relationships coach who lays out his 5 golden rules for evaluating the prospects of long-term marital success. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake.
Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love." I believe this is the .1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love.
Though this may sound "not politically correct," there's a profound truth here.
Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love isthe result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: "You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone." You need a lot more!!!
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Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION .1:
Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone.What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together? You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.
Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2) you can grow apart. 50..f the people out there aregrowing apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life! Bottom line; and marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION .2:
Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person.The basis of having good communication is trust - i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION .3:
Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right thing". So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is notsomeone whose top priority is character refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world:
(1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and
(2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort.
Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION .4:
How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.
Ask:
Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self-absorbed?
To measure this, think about the following:
How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.?
How do they treat their parents and siblings?
Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them?
You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION .5:
Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse!" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.
In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart.
It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.
Another perspective...
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention.
Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know, or appreciate you?
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.
An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."
Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.
Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the relationship?
Do you bring pastrelationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?
You can't take someone to the altar to alter them.
You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.
If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life" you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.
..:: Golden rules for finding your life partner ::..
by Dov Heller, M.A.
A relationships coach who lays out his 5 golden rules for evaluating the prospects of long-term marital success. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake.
Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love." I believe this is the .1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love.
Though this may sound "not politically correct," there's a profound truth here.
Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love isthe result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: "You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone." You need a lot more!!!
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION .1:
Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone.What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together? You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.
Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2) you can grow apart. 50..f the people out there aregrowing apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life! Bottom line; and marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION .2:
Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person.The basis of having good communication is trust - i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION .3:
Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right thing". So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is notsomeone whose top priority is character refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world:
(1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and
(2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort.
Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION .4:
How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.
Ask:
Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self-absorbed?
To measure this, think about the following:
How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.?
How do they treat their parents and siblings?
Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them?
You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION .5:
Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse!" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.
In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart.
It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.
Another perspective...
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention.
Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know, or appreciate you?
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.
An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."
Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.
Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the relationship?
Do you bring pastrelationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?
You can't take someone to the altar to alter them.
You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.
If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life" you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.
GrAdUaTiOn!!!
Friday, June 19, 2009
So I have not just opened or even stepped into a new chapter... I am starting a new book and diving into it!!!
I graduated yesterday! Now, my plan is to Network in the Film Industry. I've already had a few leads and there is one company that wants me to fly out to Hollywood for a shoot. We'll see if it becomes reality! Either way, whatever time... I'll be there or Nashville... and back again! My roots are here in Dallas/Fort Worth.
So now that I have taken off and my wings are holding me high above the earth... I have a beautiful view now and I'm never, ever letting it go!
Me and Brittani
Me and Helen
Destiny, me and Sasha
Me and Valerie
Me and Vals again
I graduated yesterday! Now, my plan is to Network in the Film Industry. I've already had a few leads and there is one company that wants me to fly out to Hollywood for a shoot. We'll see if it becomes reality! Either way, whatever time... I'll be there or Nashville... and back again! My roots are here in Dallas/Fort Worth.
So now that I have taken off and my wings are holding me high above the earth... I have a beautiful view now and I'm never, ever letting it go!
Me and Brittani
Me and Helen
Destiny, me and Sasha
Me and Valerie
Me and Vals again
Countdown has Begun!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I graduate in 4 hours!
Noon tomorrow I spread my wings... and splurge for lunch a bit!
I'm making transitions that I need in my life.
I'm detaching myself of everything linked to my ex.
I am done with school, which is where some good yet BAD memories happened... I can move on, and grow bloom into something I've always dreamed.
I'm quitting a job that was linked to him, and working somewhere even better!
My Laser will soon be done! No attachment there!
I get to start working out again in the MORNING!!!
One thing... although I do hope he IS attending church, I hope that it's not at mine. Understandably, I don't want to be under any roof as he.
July 29th, things will be complete. I will be fully relieved from past pain!
Time to move on to happiness!
Soon, Dillon will be back home! And first thing, we are planning a trip to Colorado! He wants to go snow boarding so bad! And neither of us have been on snow, so I am very excited to be able to share that experience just with him! I heart him dearly!
So, things are ending, and things are beginning! I am happier and more fulfilled then I have ever been in my entire life! I am back to me again and not controlled by anyone but God!
Noon tomorrow I spread my wings... and splurge for lunch a bit!
I'm making transitions that I need in my life.
I'm detaching myself of everything linked to my ex.
I am done with school, which is where some good yet BAD memories happened... I can move on, and grow bloom into something I've always dreamed.
I'm quitting a job that was linked to him, and working somewhere even better!
My Laser will soon be done! No attachment there!
I get to start working out again in the MORNING!!!
One thing... although I do hope he IS attending church, I hope that it's not at mine. Understandably, I don't want to be under any roof as he.
July 29th, things will be complete. I will be fully relieved from past pain!
Time to move on to happiness!
Soon, Dillon will be back home! And first thing, we are planning a trip to Colorado! He wants to go snow boarding so bad! And neither of us have been on snow, so I am very excited to be able to share that experience just with him! I heart him dearly!
So, things are ending, and things are beginning! I am happier and more fulfilled then I have ever been in my entire life! I am back to me again and not controlled by anyone but God!
Bobo's Oat Bars
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Wholly Moly!
I've tried a million +1 bars for snacking, and not one has been good enough to become addicting! Until... I met Bobo.
CLEAN, PURE, ORGANIC Ingredients! PLUS it's VEGAN!!!!! Yay!
One cool thing is, they use Earth Balance butter. The best butter in the world of all butters!
A MUST TRY!
Happy Birthday to Me!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Okay... it's not really my birthday.
But tonight was MY night! Yes, I'm being selfish. Selfish with myself.
So, 99.9% of the time I listen to Christian music.
This evening, I tuned into the local "kiss fm" and heard this Birthday song.
So Happy Birthday to me!
I got myself a big present!
I'm going to celebrate my Birthday everyday!
Happy Birthday Me!
But tonight was MY night! Yes, I'm being selfish. Selfish with myself.
So, 99.9% of the time I listen to Christian music.
This evening, I tuned into the local "kiss fm" and heard this Birthday song.
So Happy Birthday to me!
I got myself a big present!
I'm going to celebrate my Birthday everyday!
Happy Birthday Me!
Coming to and end...
Monday, June 8, 2009
Alot of things are coming to an end.
Things that kind of sadden me, but excite me at the same time!
Of course, you know of the divorce. It sucks, what all I've had to go through... but I am soooo blessed that I have seen the true side of things now and not 10 years later!
It kinda stinks that as well, my schooling is coming to an end. I've met some wonderful people, and basically have lived with them for half a year. I love them dearly as if they were my own family. They were there during the best times of my personal life... and were also there during the most difficult, but still, I managed to only miss 2 days of school. One due to being so sick from Jimmy leaving, that I couldn't even pick my head up from the bed and two being the court date, which in the same day I had to get stitches. Fun! Then going through the fight of getting my son back! They are so amazing and have seen strength, and I know that maybe it will come in handy for them one day have seeing me go through what I did and still kept going!
I have seen and found the stronger, hard working, determined, and spiritual leader woman in me that I thank God for.
I am happy that I can actually be in control of my own household!!! I can clean without anyone saying I did anything wrong! I can fix things around the house without anyone saying that it's a mans job and I need to leave it for him! I can paint, without anyone telling me no! I can feel like me again and be the one to go to the grocery store and pick out what I need! I know what goes in and out of the account! I'm actually a person now! And I am happpy! SO very happy!!!
So... 6 more school days till I graduate!
"...The End. is just a new beginning"
Looks like I hit my goal weight after all! When I say I'm going to do something, I am. :)
BEACH TIME!!!
Ready Heidi?
Things that kind of sadden me, but excite me at the same time!
Of course, you know of the divorce. It sucks, what all I've had to go through... but I am soooo blessed that I have seen the true side of things now and not 10 years later!
It kinda stinks that as well, my schooling is coming to an end. I've met some wonderful people, and basically have lived with them for half a year. I love them dearly as if they were my own family. They were there during the best times of my personal life... and were also there during the most difficult, but still, I managed to only miss 2 days of school. One due to being so sick from Jimmy leaving, that I couldn't even pick my head up from the bed and two being the court date, which in the same day I had to get stitches. Fun! Then going through the fight of getting my son back! They are so amazing and have seen strength, and I know that maybe it will come in handy for them one day have seeing me go through what I did and still kept going!
I have seen and found the stronger, hard working, determined, and spiritual leader woman in me that I thank God for.
I am happy that I can actually be in control of my own household!!! I can clean without anyone saying I did anything wrong! I can fix things around the house without anyone saying that it's a mans job and I need to leave it for him! I can paint, without anyone telling me no! I can feel like me again and be the one to go to the grocery store and pick out what I need! I know what goes in and out of the account! I'm actually a person now! And I am happpy! SO very happy!!!
So... 6 more school days till I graduate!
"...The End. is just a new beginning"
Looks like I hit my goal weight after all! When I say I'm going to do something, I am. :)
BEACH TIME!!!
Ready Heidi?
Lemon
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Sometimes you get a Lemon. Sometimes that Lemon sucks the life out of you. But that Lemon will soon belong to someone else.
May 29th. His birthday, I stopped by station 24, and dropped off a CD I made just for him with only one song on it. The video below was on that CD.
I gave everything to that man. And if he could take it all and throw it away, then I accept it because it is now in God's hands. I tried. I tried everything.
So in return, I unexpectedly recieve these messages from Jimmy.
I will type them in the exact form sent. Not one edit. Read the truth.
May 30, 2009 1:05PM
Jimmy Richard Hayward:
Why are you wanting to go to court? We were only married a year! After I paid two educations, paid for you to starts a business, and paid for countless other things you have sucked me dry... How can you possibly want more from me???
Julie Hayward:
1:17PM
I have nothing to say
Jimmy Hayward
1:17PM
Your silence to my question speaks volumes!
Julie Hayward
I loved you more that you ever knew. One day you'll see. I gave you all of me. As a Christian, I don't believe in divorce, but you will one day have your wish. I don't have to answer any questions I don't want to anymore. I've been submissive for too long.
I just wanted love, respect, and honor. Trust, commitment, and loyalty too.
1:46PM
Jimmy Hayward
Really? Who were you being submissive to? It sure wasn't me! Were you being submissive by doing all those chores around the house? Or by not giving me what was wrong in our relationship you would do exactly what you just did--tell me what YOU wanted. Not what WE wanted. And youre upset that I "brok the time of day when I needed you? Or perhaps by yelling at me.? You were submissive to the computer, blogs, and watching tv. And any time i told you e wedding vows' by leaving you should also remember the ones you broke on a regular basis: to love honor and cherish... yelling blaming and not being my 'helper' is a far cry from that. I dont know why im telling you all this it wont do any good but maybe just speaking straight with you helps. Idk
I guess i never showed you love respect and honor all those times id fill your car with gas for you? Get your vitamins for you? How many times you do that for me? I did show you all those things on a daily basis and you know it. Was i not commited when i put you through school? How easily you forget all that i did!
Julie Hayward
2:04PM
I'm not going to throw things in your face. It's my reponsibility to learn from mine, and yours from yours. I didn't leave you. It was our first year of marriage and the 1st year is the hardest. I'm not going to live in negative. I will always love you, even through all the pain.
I'm going to leave this conversation alone. I don't want to argue. God bless you Jimmy. Ill always love you. It's best if we don't communicate unless emotions are left out. I am focusing on me and Dillon right now.
Jimmy Hayward
Thats a first
Julie Hayward
btw, I never forgot all the wonderful things you did. I also won't forget this deep scar I see everyday.
Jimmy Hayward
If that were true you wouldnt have said 'all i wanted was to be loved, honored...etc."
Julie Hayward
If you have anymore to say, you can go through my lawyer.
Jimmy Hayward
2:17PM
I don't care about your lawyer--i have one of those too. all i care about is july 28th and not having to deal with you and all your drama anymore.
All I can say is... I should have paid closer attention. He is deliberately trying to abuse me with his words, but by God, I will not allow him to scar me anymore! He soon will not be a part of me, but let him be a part of someone else who can fill all his fantasies!
Jimmy's girlfriends: please, please don't write me. I've had enough damage. Don't worry about waiting for the divorce to be final. You can have him.
Drama. My dear. Isn't coming from this end. I have been nothing else but faithful. I'm not fighting for the marriage. I'm fighting for what's right.Trust me, I don't want to drag this out. If he would only do what is right, It would be over already...
May 29th. His birthday, I stopped by station 24, and dropped off a CD I made just for him with only one song on it. The video below was on that CD.
I gave everything to that man. And if he could take it all and throw it away, then I accept it because it is now in God's hands. I tried. I tried everything.
So in return, I unexpectedly recieve these messages from Jimmy.
I will type them in the exact form sent. Not one edit. Read the truth.
May 30, 2009 1:05PM
Jimmy Richard Hayward:
Why are you wanting to go to court? We were only married a year! After I paid two educations, paid for you to starts a business, and paid for countless other things you have sucked me dry... How can you possibly want more from me???
Julie Hayward:
1:17PM
I have nothing to say
Jimmy Hayward
1:17PM
Your silence to my question speaks volumes!
Julie Hayward
I loved you more that you ever knew. One day you'll see. I gave you all of me. As a Christian, I don't believe in divorce, but you will one day have your wish. I don't have to answer any questions I don't want to anymore. I've been submissive for too long.
I just wanted love, respect, and honor. Trust, commitment, and loyalty too.
1:46PM
Jimmy Hayward
Really? Who were you being submissive to? It sure wasn't me! Were you being submissive by doing all those chores around the house? Or by not giving me what was wrong in our relationship you would do exactly what you just did--tell me what YOU wanted. Not what WE wanted. And youre upset that I "brok the time of day when I needed you? Or perhaps by yelling at me.? You were submissive to the computer, blogs, and watching tv. And any time i told you e wedding vows' by leaving you should also remember the ones you broke on a regular basis: to love honor and cherish... yelling blaming and not being my 'helper' is a far cry from that. I dont know why im telling you all this it wont do any good but maybe just speaking straight with you helps. Idk
I guess i never showed you love respect and honor all those times id fill your car with gas for you? Get your vitamins for you? How many times you do that for me? I did show you all those things on a daily basis and you know it. Was i not commited when i put you through school? How easily you forget all that i did!
Julie Hayward
2:04PM
I'm not going to throw things in your face. It's my reponsibility to learn from mine, and yours from yours. I didn't leave you. It was our first year of marriage and the 1st year is the hardest. I'm not going to live in negative. I will always love you, even through all the pain.
I'm going to leave this conversation alone. I don't want to argue. God bless you Jimmy. Ill always love you. It's best if we don't communicate unless emotions are left out. I am focusing on me and Dillon right now.
Jimmy Hayward
Thats a first
Julie Hayward
btw, I never forgot all the wonderful things you did. I also won't forget this deep scar I see everyday.
Jimmy Hayward
If that were true you wouldnt have said 'all i wanted was to be loved, honored...etc."
Julie Hayward
If you have anymore to say, you can go through my lawyer.
Jimmy Hayward
2:17PM
I don't care about your lawyer--i have one of those too. all i care about is july 28th and not having to deal with you and all your drama anymore.
All I can say is... I should have paid closer attention. He is deliberately trying to abuse me with his words, but by God, I will not allow him to scar me anymore! He soon will not be a part of me, but let him be a part of someone else who can fill all his fantasies!
Jimmy's girlfriends: please, please don't write me. I've had enough damage. Don't worry about waiting for the divorce to be final. You can have him.
Drama. My dear. Isn't coming from this end. I have been nothing else but faithful. I'm not fighting for the marriage. I'm fighting for what's right.Trust me, I don't want to drag this out. If he would only do what is right, It would be over already...
Dillon Alezander
Monday, June 1, 2009
My boy. My Blondie. My Pickle. My Athlete. My Love. My Everything. My Halo.
This song is for you.
Dillon, I am sorry for putting Jimmy first. I thought at the time that was the thing to do, but looking back I see I should have put you first. I should have watched out for your heart. I should have watched out for your safety.
Mommy was going through a really low phase, but I am pulling out of it. God is unveiling me. Dillon, if I were to ask you to do one thing for the rest of your life... keep God first. In that, you could never go wrong!
Dillon, my tears were elsewhere a month ago, but now as my strength comes back, my tears and strength are all for you. I will not stop fighting for you!
As I cry right now, I want you to know how much I truly love you. I will never allow anyone to hurt you again!
No one has control over us. It's just me and you babyboy!
It's time for me to go put my boxing gloves on.
I love you son. Forever and Ever!
This song is for you.
Dillon, I am sorry for putting Jimmy first. I thought at the time that was the thing to do, but looking back I see I should have put you first. I should have watched out for your heart. I should have watched out for your safety.
Mommy was going through a really low phase, but I am pulling out of it. God is unveiling me. Dillon, if I were to ask you to do one thing for the rest of your life... keep God first. In that, you could never go wrong!
Dillon, my tears were elsewhere a month ago, but now as my strength comes back, my tears and strength are all for you. I will not stop fighting for you!
As I cry right now, I want you to know how much I truly love you. I will never allow anyone to hurt you again!
No one has control over us. It's just me and you babyboy!
It's time for me to go put my boxing gloves on.
I love you son. Forever and Ever!
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About Me
- Jules
- This story is about a girl that loves LOVE! Where would we be without it? I love Jesus. I love Dillon. I love dancing. I love the stars. I love singing. I love makeup & stilettos. I love fashion. I love to cook. I love photography. I love cycling, running, swimming, hiking, checking facebook friend status updates, jumping on the trampoline, going to church,I love connecting with other women who have encountered pain as I had, volunteering, watching movies, planting flowers, drawing, sewing, scrapbooking, Versa Spa, Vita-C Serum, Black finger nail polish, perfecting things. I love being totally RaNdOm! TRAVELING!!! I love sinners. I love nonbelievers. Oh the joy it brings inside this heart of mine the reaction they're going to have when they see Jesus face to face! What a party we'll have!
