Half a Glass...

...and I was toast! lol

The New Miss Highland

I am free! I am sooooo HAPPY!!!

The divorce finalized today!

I'm popping open a bottle of wine! And I'm not a drinker, but I am celebrating tonight!

Gifted

As you know... you got an invitation through e-mail to view my blog. Congratulations on being one of the closest friends of mine.

Please understand that this is a HUGE thing for me that I would invite you to view my private blog. As you know, I could have completely lost faith and trust in everything with what all has happened to me. I needed you more then then ever, and I need you more now then ever. This is the truth.

An incredibly amount of pain arrived in my life on Thurs. Feb. 26th of 2009, at precisely 3 o'clock pm. The pain is pretty much over, but the trust issue remains.

How can you trust anyone again after being abandoned by the person that was your entire world? How can you love anyone again after the love of your life has an affair? How is it possible to bring back that child-like girl again?

I know it will take some time. And the people that I am around... are the people I feel like I can trust.

I invited you for a reason:

Beth: You have been an incredible support system! Oh my word, are you the strongest woman I know! Thank you so much for being my friend, and my roomate.

Cinty: You are such a sweet, mellow, sincere, genuine young woman! I love you to death! You planned my wedding. Now you hold me in your arms as it melts away. I love you and you will always be my bestie.

Heidi: We have so much in common, it's almost scary. You have lifted me as I have you during trials. I thank you for your friendship. And I am blessed to know such a wonderful successful woman. I'll see you in Cali soon.

Ron Taylor: Thank you for all the support. Prayers each and every morning. Praying with me on the phone. Those many Starbucks afternoons. And having fun back stage during the concerts. It sure has been a blast!

Austin: I've come to know much more of you. You're caring, and I trust you. I'm sorry that I'm not at the point where you would like me to be, but waiting is a precious beauty. And I pray you find it in your heart that by me focusing on me... is not because you don't mean anything. You do. Just give me time. It's going to take awhile.

Kelly: You are such a dear and kind friend. Always there when I need you. Especially for texting. lol. Love you KellBell


I believe I've come along way. And I am ready for the next step in my life.
On Tuesday, July 28th of 2009 will be a definate closing time. I'm actually painfully looking forward to it. No one ever thought this might happen. It was a surprise to me. But I wish the best for him. And I definately know that God has bigger and better plans waiting for me.

I am gifted.

Vegan Chicken Panini

Oh me, oh my! I threw this together last night and it was absolutely delish!

What you'll need:

"Ezekiel" brand hamburger buns
"Quorn" brand meatless chicken breast
Organic Lettuce
Organic Sliced Sundried Tomatoes
1/4 red pepper, sliced
Avacado
Organic Lime Juice
Lemon Pepper
Slice of Dairy Free Cheddar Cheese
Dairy Free Ranch dressing- read bottom of this blog for recipe


1) Seed the Avacado, mash in small bowl, add 2 tbsp Lime Juice, and 1 tbsp of Lemon Pepper. Mix. Set aside.
2) Grill/Bake chicken breast. Lay your cheese on chicken breast to melt, then set chicken breast on bun.
3) Spread Avacado mix on the top bun.
4) Add condiments, and whatever else you might feel in the mood for:
Lettuce, Sundried Tomatoes, Red pepper, and top with Ranch dressing. Grill your little sandwhich in your Panini maker. Enjoy!

Oh my! I know it sounds weird, but it is sooooooooo good and HEALTHY!!!





For Dairy Free Ranch Dressing:
Ingredients
1 cup Veganaise
1 1/2 teaspoons lemon juice
7 1/2 tablespoons soymilk
1/2 teaspoon dried chives
1/2 teaspoon dried parsley
1/2 teaspoon dried dill weed
1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
1/4 teaspoon onion powder
1/8 teaspoon salt
1/8 teaspoon ground black pepper
Directions
1) Mix lemon juice and soy milk and let sit for 10 minutes. (An easier way to think about the measurement is to pour 1 1/2 tsp lemon juice into a measuring cup and add soy milk until it reaches 1/2 cup.)
2) In a large bowl, whisk together the Veganaise, lemon juice and soy milk mixture, chives, parsley, dill, garlic powder, onion powder, salt and pepper.
3) Cover and refrigerate for 30 minutes before serving.

He is I am

Sometimes we wont see His promise fulfilled, sometimes even years later, but during that time of waiting, we're tested on our patience, faithfulness and love.

A Luke-warm Christian is his own god, and has his own rules. Can really manipulate one into thinking he is something when he is not.
Rev 3:16

People can fight you with their words, by their actions, rebellion, bitterness, hatred, argument and selfishness.
Ephesians 4:31-32

The way I fight back is with prayer, faith, hope, intergrity, love, commitment and honor.
Luke 6:35-38

One thing I know for sure... God is on my side!

1 John 5: 15-15

God, I don't know the promises You hold for me in the future, all I know is that I trust in You. There have been many times, when I thought things were "right" and they turned out to be so very "wrong." Lord, this life, my life, in Your hands was saved. Saved from MANY things! I am thankful. I am blessed, and there is no "other god" blocking my view from You. I'm all yours.
Maybe I'm starting to see your promises after all =)
Thank you
In Christ' name