Friendship

I have not been able to express this like others, but I think I might have figured it out.

I think I figured out friendship. Sometimes I hate giving sooo much!

I'm not the kind of person that calls myself "too nice." There's no such thing. I do give "too much" though, and Jimmy says I need to stop, because it's hurting me deep inside! He is the only one that I know of that completely understands because he has been there himself. I've not known another like this. But he understands it better, and doesn't "put himself out there" like I do. I've got to figure this out!!!

Even though these people are all really nice in their own ways, if each one had the opportunity to take advantage or freeload off of someone, they would do it.

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***I call you too much to see how you're doing. I don't give you a chance to persue it.
***I'm okay with changing my plans for you, at any time of the day.
***I'm okay with going out of my way, that the very very few times I see you, I'm giving you a free service.
***I text you "Happy Birthday" and "Merry Christmas" and the next time I hear from you, it's only to stay at my house in town because you're picking up your boyfriend from the airport the following day.
***I'm okay to drop EVERYTHING, because you finally have time for me.
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I don't like being taken advantage of. I give, and I give and I will continue to give, but a friendship is valuable, it has to be earned, and not just given away the way I have been. I am valuable. I give 100% in friendships, I'll always be there BUT YOU HAVE TO EARN IT!

I can't make myself convenient all the time for everyone, for any God given second anymore.

I can't just put myself out there. And wait.

Friendships will all come to and end at some point, some sooner, some later.

I hope I don't disappoint them, but I know at some point they might disappoint me.

This time, I'll put one foot in front of the other.

51 GRAMS PROTEIN PER SERVING!!!! WOW!

Okay, as you know I am a "somewhat" Vegan. I pretty much obey all the rules but ONE!

I eat fish! Not farm-raised fish! That stuff is nasty! BUT FREE ROAM FISH! Jesus ate it! I can eat it too! It's clean and I'm sticking with that meat only. I don't have it on a regular basis, but when I do eat a form of meat, it's either that, or the high protein foux chicken made of mushroom. Other than that, no red meats, no chicken, yadda yadda. You know the drill.

So I found the AMAZING HIGH PROTEIN recipe on my favorite magazine website.

Let's try it together! Check it out!

Ingredients
Serves 1
2 oz. soba noodles*
1 Tbsp. olive oil
1 Tbsp. lemon juice
2 tsp. rice vinegar
¼ tsp. wasabi paste*
1 pouch (6 oz.) pink salmon
1 Tbsp. roasted sesame seeds*
* found in the Asian aisle of your supermarket

Directions1. Prepare soba according to package directions. Meanwhile, whisk together olive oil and lemon juice in a small bowl. 2. Add vinegar and wasabi, whisking until smooth. Combine all ingredients in a large bowl.

NUTRITION FACTS: 551 calories, 51 g protein, 44 g carbs, 21.5 g fat

What's "WOW" upside down? "MOM" Yup, that's me, and this is a HEALTHY recipe! That rhimed! lol

Wrapping up 2008

For those who know me, know what kind of life I lived. It's been a rough ride... BUT...

I can honestly say that 2008 has been the best year of my entire life! I wish I could re-live it over and over and over again!

2008 didn't start off with a New Years Resolution, I think I was wrapped up in other things!

Here's an overview on my many events that happened!!!

JANUARY:
* New Years- Simply Fondue in Alrington w/Fiance' Jimmy.
* Picked a date for the wedding! February 2nd!
* Wedding Party, thrown by Kelly, Laura and Andi!!! Luv'yall!
* Cinti made all of our Wedding invitations.
* Mom & Dad (Hayward) helped TREMENDOUSLY on all wedding plans!!!
* Went under the knife the second week of January.
* I started my 1st Laser Hair removal Session.

February:
* I went on my very first ever Plane ride with my soon to be Husband!!! I loved it!!!
* I had the most beautiful, amazing wedding in Valencia, California on 2-2-08
* Our first road trip together, from Valencia to San Diego! Our Honeymoon Destination!
* Back to LA, and comforted by the presence of my new family, and a nice dinner.
* Back to Texas, home sweet home. We're Married!

March:
* 7th, My Birthday! 26 is the best age ever!!!
* Jeremy Camp / Toby Mac Concert
* Flyleaf Concert

April:
* Texas Rangers - Third Day
* MercyMe, Skillet & Jeremy Camp Concert

May:
* Dillon competes in his 1st Triathlon!
* Cleansing Stream Retreat
* Jimmy's 32nd Birthday!

June:
* Celebrate Freedom!
* Dillon goes to Triathlon Camp in Austin, Tx and has his 2nd Triathlon!!!
* Jimmy and I Vacation in San Antonio!!!

July:
* 4th, Botanic Garden w/the F.W.Syphony Orchestra!
* I got my Certification as an Intradermal Technician!
* Dillon competes in his 3rd Triathlon!

August:
* Dillon started school!
* Became Besties with Emily!
* Stacey & Travis Marry!!!

September:
* Jimmy had his first Triathlon in Dennison, Tx!
* We have an addition to our family! Sammy!!! I heart him sooo much! (he's laying under my comp. chair right now)
* Dillon starts Baseball AND Gymnastics!!!
* Jimmy's BF Josh & Angela Marry!!! (Josh is the uncle of the Jonas Bro's)
* I open doors to my business, Glamorous Ink.com

October:
* Our 1 year dating anniversary!
* Canton Womens Retreat!!! Fun! Fun! Fun!

November:
* Dillon's 8th Birthday!!! He's getting big, and soooo smart!
* I started Personal Training with Shar!
* Back to California for Thanksgiving!

December:
* Dillon got his report card in, and has not made a "B" yet!!! ALL "A's"!!!!!!!!!
* Working out with new friend Stephanie EVERY single day! Sometimes 2x's a day!
* It was nice to have my sister over for Christmas. A short couple of minutes, but it was nice, and having mom (Highland) there, priceless.
*** Our First Christmas together as Husband and Wife =)

Personal Training *ouch*

So I started doing personal training Sessions with Shar 3 times a week at her gym in Aledo. She is amazing... and it's kind of hard not to gawk at her body. Wow!

But that makes you want to work out even harder. When your brain is telling you "I can't do another rep!" I just look at her (while she is telling me "YOU GOT 3 MORE!") and I do it!

I'm very excited about my end results! I'm 8 training sessions into it, and I'm going to be training till my birthday in March!

Just to give you a sneak peak of my trainer, here she is...

Shar Courtney

Although I haven't seen a big difference in weight. I have in muscle, so I know it's going good!

Today, after my workout.... allllll the way home my arms were trembling! I had such a good workout my body was telling me to pull over to the side of the road.... FAST!!!

And just as I listened to my body, I opened the door and threw up! Yuck! Part of it got on my car door! Gross!

That's when you know you had a good workout.

So I challenge YOU... "(ah) Push it, Push it Real Good"!!! lol