To a "T"

Pisces,
Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They sometimes exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually (depending on how they are aspected). They long to be recognized as greatly creative. They also dislike disciple and confinement. The nine-to-five life is not for them. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they often times do not have the energy or motivation to battle against the Establishment.

Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, fame and financial reward for they are extremely gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places.

They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful.

In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking. They would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers.

Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation.

Possible Health Concerns...
Pisces governs the feet, liver and lymphatics, and its subjects can be threatened by anaemia, boils, ulcers and other skin diseases, especially inflammation of the eyelids, gout, inflammation, heavy periods and foot disorders and lameness.

He shuffles EVERYWHERE!!!

Picked the bow in remembrance of a special girl that will always carry a part of my heart wherever she goes.

SCRAMBLE

8s must be my number or something!

Okay, so normally this is my average final score after all sessions have been completed!!! I seriously scored 888 points in one single round!!! Woohoo!!!
And no, I do not cheat. I play fair.

Adult Party Favors

So I looked EVERYWHERE to figure out what to do for party favors. I googled, pinterested (..ed, really?), asked random people at hobby and party stores, asked friends. Nothing. Came up with NOTHING!!!

So I was like... I'll just got to the flippin dollar store to buy 40 gifts. There was nothing there that even had a quantity of 40! So I looked around anyways. Saw wine glasses for a buck each. I thought filling those with candies!!!

Then, as I was headed back home, I decided to take a wine glass into our famous "Walmart" (omg) and see if those mini wine bottles fit. Well, I forgot the dang wine glass in the car. So I opened up a pack of theirs. They actually cost less (in bulk packaging) and looked nicer.

THE WINE BOTTLES FIT INSIDE THE GLASS!!! Bought some tissue paper, cut into fourths. Decorated the wine glasses with a bow I made to go around the stem, and about a tbsp of pink star confetti on the inside. Wrapped those bottles and placed them in the glasses. I'm happy with the outcome. <3

I'll add the length of the ribbon tomorrow, since I don't want to get out of bed right now. And aprox cost.

Everyone keeps asking me if I've heard from him. I don't know what hurts the most. That I haven't or that people keep asking me this same question as I try and move on.
No, he hasn't. No, I don't think he ever will. That's that. People quit asking me. It's still a fresh cut.

I can write so much more, but mowing and edging stole all my energy. So... The End.

Cowtown Marathon 2012

Every time you hear a cowbell, a runner gets its medal.

Right after race.

Joyce Meyer Conference 2/2012

https://vr.shapeservices.com/listen.php?hash=906bdb79d62808db2e1f86665d0ab235a2a3f97427cfba462

What an amazing conference, yet again.

Theres a lady who sat next to me that responded to Joyce a lot! lol

Joyce Meyer Conference

Arlington, Tx - Feb. 23, 2012

What a great time. I always have enjoyed her messages! This is not my first, and definitely not my last!

The title of tonight's message was "Don't settle for less!!!"

Fat Tuesdayyy wha wha!

I tell ya,... he is definitely one of a kind!

Mumbai ?

You've got to be kidding!!! Oh. My. Word!

Sneak Peak into my Birthday

What a doll!

I'm awestruck as to how to respond to all this love! I mean seriously,.. I haven't done anything, not even write on my wall! I don't know where people are getting all this stuff.
If I were in a relationship, I don't think I'd be able to give my time to all these people like I have been. I'm kinda thankful really. Cause no ONE deserves me, but EVERY one deserves me.
I give 100% to my relationship. Although not easy, and I'm alone in my bed at night, the days are full of joy and wonderful people!!!

30th Birthday Cards

She finally let go of her fake smile
And wiped the teardrops from her face
She straightened up her posture
And erased memories out of trace

She's moving on, he's not the one
He had not the desire to protect her
He came and gone, as if it wasn't wrong
The trust is gone, she must make sure, this cannot reoccur.

If its so easy to turn away on something so amazing
Then she's glad it happened at this time
It's getting tough to meet true, heart felt people
Who are the consistent and loyal kind.

As the sun rises, she lifts her head then makes her bed
While she's still under the covers.
She slides out as she hears the sound
Of her unconditional lover.

She turns around, there's nothing to be found
Just a pencil and a pad of paper
She saw there was writing on the tablet, in a fret
Her heart could read every ounce of that letter.

She didn't see, yet felt the words
flowing from the paper
They then faded ever so quickly from her view
Not a trace of it she can treasure

Things disappear as fast as they appear
In this world that we live in
They come and go, while expecting your heart
They want more from you then they can give, times ten.

How a little girl can grow up to feel so much pain
Through all her years, she just wanted to feel safe
In one mans arms her whole life through
But nevertheless, she's always been betrayed

She's given up on love because no one can define love as she does
Even the richest or most powerful man
He has nothing what she has
Who is passionate enough to love in her life span.

So she picks her head up and unlocks the door
To what she's been holding onto
She realizes that what she was holding on for so long,
Wasn't holding onto her.

A little girl has no hope in this world
Because truth no longer exists
She packs up and throws the memories out the door
And refuses that she will ever miss
The things she experienced
The love she THOUGHT she had
For one who had not a clue how much he was blessed

My 30th Birthday...

...is getting way too close!!!

Here are the invites I made.

What if

Hello Kitty AK-47?

SHOOT-YEAH!!! :)

Oh my word!

This was not the direction I was headed with this! I am awestruck!




Now, I'm just starting to think they're in denial. lol

Tele drawing by Highland

Everyone got to pick something in art class today. There was of course a lot of cups, mugs, wine bottles, containers, styrofoam, and some metal objects but I saw that phone and wanted it! I know it would be the most challenging out of all the objects the art room had and I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it before class let out... which I was right. But non the less, I did capture a recognizable image on paper. It's nowhere near done but am kinda impressed with myself that I got Thai much done... and with CHARCOAL that I cannot STAND using!!! So, here it is. Enjoy.

Haha!!! Im in art class right now and I went to look at the piece I did at 1am last night (or this morning if you want to be critical). I just KNEW it was going to come out downright aweful. I had the lights off but my lamp. My soft bulb is lowest in wattage so it's still fairly dark. Being that it was hard to see, I couldn't tell how I was doing on the shading. I did what I could. Turned out okay. Score. lol

So I found this website that you can ask people for their opinions and stuff. I am still really torn about my last "relationship", so I opened a questionnaire and got some feedback within just a short period of time. It's now 3am and I cannot go to sleep.

So, our weekend is now coming to an end. It's been some time now. Kinda sad in a way that my biggest dream didn't come true. I know I have till Valentines but you know... this weekend was OUR weekend. Sometimes I wonder if things mean more to me than anyone else in the world. Of all time.
Holding on hurts if not more than anything else in the world. I've prayed and have dug into my bible, read so many scriptures, chapters, books and over time I have felt Someone speak to my heart. I have set a date as to when my heart will let go. It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt. Or that I've stopped caring. It's that the other hasn't cared enough. And I truly believe in my heart and soul that I deserve someone who truly does care about me.
I want to feel that.

Even though I see myself 110% focusing on school and work for now, I do not have the time to invest into starting something new. I feel like my heart belongs to someone right now anyways, but I know... I must cut my heart off from this. And I know that when I cut my heart from this, I don't know of the possibilities of it making it happen again. I just feel so cut off, so mislead, so hurt not only for myself but for both kids, it turns my stomach inside out. I cannot go on like this. And I must end it in my heart.

As the clock strikes midnight and Valentines Day comes to an end, I will then know from the pit of my heart, where the seed spills out the life of love. It's completely over.

I'm already preparing my heart for the outcome.

...getting easier

Or...

Night Out - Makeup

So tonight I went out to the first ever annual singles "Anti Valentines Day" Bitter Dinner Party at the Fort Worth Zoo with my friend Laura. It was such an AMAZING time! Met so many people, and better yet, the entertainment was plain out awesome. They had rented this one company that videos 7 seconds of a personal message, or form of expression and turns it into a flip book. Just in case you may be interested, it is www.iloveflipbooks.com <3 They're $350 an hour and a minimum of 2 hours.
I'd REALLY like to rent them for my b-day. I am only 30 once, but... guess it's out. lol. Oh, oh, oh... so they asked someone to raise their hand to volunteer for something, I raised my hand. Not too many people raised their hands, maybe a hand full... but I got picked. Major LOL!!! Anyways,... they brought an alligator out... and I got to HOLD HIM!!!!!!!!! He was so cool feeling. He was soft, though tough skinned, I could feel his chest move in and out in my left hand from breathing. It was such an amazing feeling. It was a 21 and over party, they had a bar which was odd that the measly $55 covered EVERYTHING, the flip books (however many we wanted to make), dinner, desert and fun games. Okay, enough... just had a great time. Things are getting easier.


These eyes hide many stories. Stories of love, stories of pain, stories of strength, stories of betrayal. But behind these eyes,... there is unconditional love.
God is love, and we can never know true love apart from Him.




Pucker up buttercup! You know you weren't going to escape without SOMETHING to do with "Makeup"! Duh! lol

Dear head,

If you "blow up" make sure you burst into tons of beautiful colorful pieces of brilliantly shaped confetti so people can see what's inside! lol

Strength, stubbornness or satisfying yourself... either way, there's a little something behind someone's smile and eyes.

It's been so long, my heart has been waiting
But something in me, gets the impression
That he has moved on and back to his previous life
That my only prayer is that his xwife will now treat him right

My heart is torn like never before
I've never loved someone so much, this I'm sure
I feel a tug at my heart, saying "Wait till Valentines Day"
That I'll have an answer, as to how much he treasures me,
My heart, my love, all the wonderful things that we shared
I'll finally find out how much he really cared.

Cause if time is so hard to be away from the one you love
If he loved me as much as he said, this time would be enough
That my mind fills with the fairy tale thoughts
of him suprising me with a simple smile and a heart that he fought
For with every piece of strength he had
His heart for me that has been wrapped
Even with broken pieces he cannot put back together
It'll be me that caresses the pieces someone broke off, that he let me capture

But I guess I will know in dear time
If he wants his broken pieces to combine with mine.
So the contentment now begins
Of my Gods answer of what occurs next.
Will there be an end or no end at all
Will he as well gather the pieces of my heart that also began to fall
Will he hold those pieces like a dried up rose
And glue back the fallen petals, and become my hero?

Or will he disappear in the mid of the night,
Like he's nowhere to be found, just blank puzzle pieces thats been inserted in my life.

Whichever the case, he does or does not arrive,
It will be me in the end, as I will continue to change lives.

There's someone that holds the key
To my heart, as I wonder if it'd be he
That unlocks the door that has a gift inside,
For only the key holder, receives something more than divine.

Whenever I feel weak, I'll remember those who make me strong. And whenever I start to doubt myself, I'll remember those who believed in me.

Super Bowl 2012

Giants win 21-17

Manning scored last minute touch-down
Brady set a Super Bowl record

Was a fun game to watch. I'm glad Chief and I were rooting for them, although we wanted to give up watching them by half-time. lol. Half time show was okay. Though I like Madonna's old school songs, not her new one though (sorry), I had those moments where I felt a little embarrassed, uncomfortable if you will, for her. I mean, she's got a great body at her age n all, don't get me wrong. It just didn't feel right. lol. So, off to clean all this junk food up. Workout. Then study. Good job NY Giants!

On a personal note, I remember the times I'd be texting/talking to someone during games. I guess they're just memories, but at least I have good ones in those moments. I have some things on my heart I've been wanting to write about it. Maybe I'll get the time to spill my words on paper. I had some tears from it earlier. My next downpour I'm sure will be a good time, it unfortunately may be the last.

Hope there's one who has the key to my heart...

The Hope in my heart that there is, one that carries the key to my heart as I carry his. My huge desire to love him forever, that everything I've gone through, in the end will turn out so much better. Cause I will be loved like I've never been loved before, And our most common argument is who loves who more. I love you... future "key holder". ~Julie Highland



I took this pic while holding one of the Christmas ornaments (a single key) ... ornaments in which I'm finally packing up to put away. The pillow "Hope"... keeps me afloat.
And yes, those are my REAL nails. Gel nail polish = Amazing!

Gun Range Date

It's been a busy weekend! But a fab one. Today we got a lot of things taken care of plus went to a bday party. Dillon's coach from last year was at the bday party. After it ended he offered to take him for some guy time.
It just makes my heart happy to see some guys take that initiative.
Anyways, when they all left, I took myself on a date!
Stopped by the store to grab a couple boxes of ammo and earmuffs. Now I'm all set.
Gosh it felt so good. Did it all alone, and was jamming to my music at the same time.

The only downfall is guys trying to hit on you. And there were some good lookin ones. Just make an in and out in a second! Works great. No conversations. Me time. I had a blast! CHL for my birthday. Might as well.

25 yards

Call me retarded, but this kinda stuff gets me all excited!!! I LOVE doing work like this! Thinking about doing my countertops with a rich caramel/mocha swirl tile. Funnnnnnnnnn!!! :)))

Timeline Messages

Oh my gosh! I don't even understand all of this! I wish I could get into the minds of all the people to see what I have done in their lives to cause fulfillment. Oh my. I'm beyond filled with indescribable exultant emotion!

Luckily I have a great big heart, otherwise people saying this stuff all the time would totally thicken my head!

BTW, a Magazine is publishing one of my poems next month! Yay!

Homework

Its due next week. I want a free weekend of homework so knocking everything out now.



We've been ordered to draw a pencil. lol! So, here is my pencil.

Groundhog Day VS Valentines Day

And the 16th of each month. They all equally suck. Tremendously.