Dear God. I prayed and prayed and prayed. But I WILL continue to "dip" till I hit the 7th. I will not give up. I have faith.

You would think as the saying goes... "time heals all wounds", that this would be accurate.

But why does it seem that the wound would only be closed is if the knife was re-entered into the opening that never closed. And just.... left there, for the one particular stronghold to mend it slowly back together.

Maybe time does heal... maybe the deepest desires of my heart still exsist 3 years ago. Maybe there are unanswered questions as to why things happened the way they did. But conversations as to which they would be maturely resolved, rebuilt, and strengthened to strongest of structures. To the strongest of foundations. To where absolutely not even the faintest of fears or concerns could ever enter again.

Maybe it's just a girls dream. A girls fairy-tale. A girls fantasy.

This would be mine.

Maybe one day. He will come home.

conquered my biggest fear

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Breaking the Silence of my Life with the simple touch of a child's prayer

What an incredible summer. Incredibly BUSY summer!

I am at this very moment in the hotel finishing up day 2 of our last kids camp. 2 more days left.

Today was a spectacular day. God really moved, Service tonight couldn't have honestly gone better. Everything from the first second, to the last. God really showed himself.

Our games were so much fun. They usually are, but we usually play them and go with the flow. It's just amazing how smoothly everything went.

Yesterday, I was in a lot of pain. But didn't complain about it. During alter time, I had to go behind stage and rest. Ruth prayed over me. After prayer was over, a group of young pure girls started praying over me. They didn't know about my accident, until after Ruth mentioned it to them, after they had already began praying,... she then helped them narrow the prayer down.

Today we preached about how strong our God is and can work through the smallest of people.

It's actually funny how our scheduled topic ended up being this. That since they prayed... I have felt so good within! Today was my first day back in the gym. I attempted running and got to 1/2 a mile, and walked 2.5 miles. I was so happy. And mainly because I was not in pain afterwards.

Today was as well my first time to sing on stage by myself. With a crowd of 700 people, as I walked up on stage, I was a little nervous... but God took ahold of me, my thoughts, my body and my voice... and I worshipped. The experiences are sure to get better and better I'm sure!

And I will save the best for last. Tonight things were switched up. We called the adults - pastors, counselors down to the alter. The faces from the stage. The grown men and women on their knees with tears rolling down their face. The children came to pray over them. How the little voices you could hear mumbling throughout the place, as their hands placed on ones shoulders or head. Amazing! .... AMAZING!

Tears could have covered the entire room floor.

I can't put it in any other words but... purely amazing. Today was a fantastic day. Better than so many. I'm ready to repeat this. But I'm not ready for this being our last camp of the summer... to end.