Laying here in my bed
So many thoughts running through my head
I dont even have to look to find
cause, everything bout him is whats on my mind.

I always wonder if he's thinking of me too
If life for him is just as blue
From day one I knew we'd always be a part
Of eachothers lives, in one another's heart.

Maybe it was just a dream of my own
I lied to myself that somebody could sew
My heart together with love I never had
And I'd be able to give my son a real dad.

It was incredible the times we shared
There's no words as to how much I cared
For him and still without question do.
But time takes a toll and the heart becomes subdued.

I cannot say its done that yet
I don't know how he doesn't regret
The impact he had on this heart of mine
To involve innocent lives all at the same time.

Although I waited for three long years,
I was ready for love, I was ready to hear
The beat of my undying loves heart
In the mid of the night as each day would start,
A brand new love each awaking morning
From my heart thats incapable of not pouring.

I cannot smell him on this pillow anymore
Is it a sign of him leaving my core?
The inner most parts so deep down inside
That now I feel I must try and hide.

I felt if he cared, he wouldntve gone astray
We used to be so close, now were so far away.
If he truly loved me, he'd still be here
Something's going on, something's not sincere.

I don't think it was about the healing climb
Cause if it were, I'd been lied to two times.
He told me he was over it two years ago.
How is it possible, this much later, begin to show?

Things were so perfect, I don't understand it at all
I don't think he'll ever come back around or even call
I must get passed another heartache
And know, just know that a heart has been saved,
Just for me from God above
That nothing compares to unconditional love.